Monday, April 20, 2020

On Beauty and Ugliness

As part of my research for Bargaining Power and the Power Trips series in general, I looked into beauty and ugliness.  Which is to say, on the psychological studies that had been done on each, and what I found was interesting on a number of levels—the first of which being that it was easy to find studies on how differently beautiful people are treated and extremely difficult (although I did succeed) to find information on how differently ugly people are treated.

To put it another way: there is a stigma not only against being ugly (and shame on you if you were born that way) and thus a politically correct denial that ugliness exists.  “Everyone is beautiful, because true beauty is on the inside!”

Yeah, except that’s not what “beauty” means, when we’re talking about physical attractiveness.  Not everyone is beautiful.  The vast majority of people aren’t beautiful.  The vast majority are ordinary looking or within a standard deviation thereof.  To put it another way, imagine we’re talking about race.  Let’s say there are two sorts of people, blue and green.  In their culture, there is a vast and deep prejudice against blue people, but everyone denies that prejudice exists because really, everyone is green.

Do you think this attitude will lessen prejudice against blue people?  The first step to fixing a problem is admitting you have one.

Another example.  After doing this research, I came to the conclusion once more that I am glad I do not have the sort of beauty that makes people act significantly differently toward me.  People don’t give me free things because I’m just so beautiful, for example.  Heads don’t turn when I enter the room.  I’m not habitually objectified by the people I meet.  But what fascinates me about this?  Whenever I mention this to someone, their INSTANT response is, “But you are beautiful!”  And then they proceed to lecture me on the meaning of true beauty, etc.

In other words, they are purposefully misunderstanding what I mean and telling me that I am, in fact, what I have expressed that I am grateful I am not—and acting as if I only made the above observation because I’m . . . what?  Low confidence?  Fishing for compliments?  Do they think that because I acknowledge that I’m not instantly stunningly gorgeous I must think I’m ugly (and we mustn’t admit anyone is that!), and that nothing less than thinking myself “beautiful” will allow me to live a fulfilling life?  Are people's self-worths entirely dependent on thinking themselves beautiful?  Rather than, for example, beloved by God?

In the Merlin mini-series with Sam Neill, Morgan Le Fay uses magic to make herself beautiful.  Merlin pityingly tells her that her beauty is only skin deep, and she scornfully replies that beauty is always only skin deep.

Some people are better looking; some people are worse looking.  Acknowledging that, and acknowledging your own prejudices, will help you overcome them.

Lying will not.


Own Your Face

Sunday, April 12, 2020

The Full Monster Saga

The background:  So, a few months ago I posted about making K-pop mix CDs with stories attached.  My first one was "Descent Into Monster."  As I made more, though, that one kept bugging me.  Since it had begun as an EXO mix rather than a general K-pop mix, it was very unbalanced.  I therefore eventually went back and turned the 31-song 2-disc mix into a single 20-song mix.  But then this left a lot of songs from the first mix unused.  I thought I'd just incorporate them elsewhere, but I found myself to instead continue the saga until I'd used every song and finished the story.  As part of it, I tried to also reincorporate more of the same artists to give each an appropriate feel, though there was a limit to how possible this was.

Anyway, here it is -- the complete saga:


Descent Into Monster

MC spends his time doing drugs (Dope) until he overdoses, whereupon he finally seeks medical attention (Overdose).  Now clean, he finds that he’s a loser (Loner) with mommy issues (Mama).

MC spots a woman and falls in love (Beautiful).  Though he knows he’s not good enough for her (Mr. Simple) he asks her out (CALL ME BABY) and to his astonishment, she accepts (Take You Home).  For the first time in his life, he’s happy (Ring Ding Dong).

But things start to go wrong (Dramarama) and she breaks up with him (HURT).  He can’t handle this and begins going crazy (Psycho), finally becoming a monster (Monster).

A former soldier recognizes what is going on (Skydive) and takes it upon himself to solve the situation.  He ambushes MC (BOOM).  They fight (Shoot Out), and MC retreats (Run Away).  Soldier gives chase (Follow).

Soldier sees he has one shot at victory, but it'll cost him his life (One Shot).  He decides to sacrifice himself to end MC's evil (Before the Dawn).


Rise Into Twilight

Against all odds, Soldier survives (Blue Flame).  He celebrates (DamDaDi) only to be interrupted by a flash of monstrous madness (Growl).  He tells himself it was nothing (Bounce).

Soldier goes to tell his girlfriend (Love) about his victory (Cherry).  But as he does, the madness comes on him again (Crush My Mind), and he can’t stop himself (Badman) from killing her with his new, monstrous strength (Black Pearl).

He is horrified at what he’s become (Dangerous), and must come to terms with the truth (Like Rain Like Music): his victory (Lost) turned him into a monster (Alligator).

He tries to blow himself up (Bomb), but that only serves to unleash the madness again (Let Out the Beast).  When he comes to himself, he despairs (Rainfall).  He doesn’t understand—until night falls (Twilight), and his full powers emerge (Wolf).  Then it finally clicks (Tick Tack).  He survived not because MC made him a monster, but because necessity unleashed his innate powers (Dracula).


Battle Against Night

Honorable (Last Romeo), Soldier swears he will never kill another innocent (Ghost).  He will rise above his monstrousness (Rise) and hunt his own kind (N.O).

In his search (Under Cover), he finds a woman weep­ing (Lonely) as she feasts on human flesh (Mirotic).  Soldier wonders whether she regrets being a monster (Winter Butterfly) and approaches her.  She attacks him, but instead of dying, he unlocks a new level of power (Valkyrie).

She escapes, and he sets off on a rampage (Obsession).  But the more monsters he kills, the more he leaches away his sanity and humanity (Lost in the Dream).

One day, when he’s knee-deep in blood, he realizes what he’s become. He falls to his knees, seeming weak.  At that moment, Mirotic, who’s been stalking him, makes her move (Dun Dun).  Soldier realizes immediately what she is about and swears to take her down with him (Good Luck).

The game begins (Hide & Seek), with each deter­mined to kill the other (Answer).  They fight with no clear victor (Stuck).  They are such equals, this feels almost like friendship (Maze of Memories).

Finally, Soldier surrenders, kneeling down.  Mirotic springs forward to kill him (Shine). He smiles and she realizes her mistake, but it’s too late for her (Memory).

Soldier has won and is alive to continue battling. Forever (Fate).


Triumph Over Fate

Soldier has never slacked, never failed to continue fighting monsters (Depend On Me).  Whenever it looks like he’s going to lose, he becomes yet more powerful (Level Up).  He’s gained quite a reputation (Jealous), which only increases his difficulties (Double Knot).  He wonders if he will ever be able to rest (Edge).

Then a strange woman approaches him (Girl Problems) telling him she has a solution—a place he can be at peace (Treasure).  But he must first defeat the king of monsters, to stop the influx of new monsters (Cactus).  Soldier says she didn’t need to bribe him; he’ll do his duty (On).  And yet, he desperately wants to believe he can be helped (Secret Night).

Soldier heads out to defeat the Monster King (Exodus), though his mind is constantly distracted by the woman’s promise (Baby Don’t Stop).  He stumbles while fighting (Trespass), and wonders if she meant to make him vulnera­ble through distraction (Manipulate).  Although devastated (Thought I Loved You), he fights even harder (Illusion) and defeats the Monster King (Bonamana).

The woman reappears to fulfill her promise (Na Hago Nolja).  He says he knows she’s lying (Experience), but as he speaks, his monstrousness fades, though his power remains.  He can now live whatever life he wants (Love Shot).


Track Listing: You can listen to the entirety on YouTube HERE.  YouTube has more of the songs than Spotify, but I couldn't find TVXQ!'s "Manipulate" there, and that song is available on Spotify.  

Descent Into Monster:
1.     Dope – BTS
2.     Overdose – EXO-K
3.     Loner – CNBlue
4.     Mama – EXO-K
5.     Beautiful – Baekyhun
6.     Mr. Simple – Super Junior
7.     CALL ME BABY – EXO
8.     Take You Home – Baekhyun
9.     Ring Ding Dong – SHINee
10.  Dramarama – Monsta X
11.  HURT – EXO
12.  Psycho – Baekhyun
13.  Monster – EXO
14.  Skydive – B.A.P.
15.  BOOM – NCT Dream
16.  Shoot Out – MonstaX
17.  Run Away – TXT
18.  Follow – Monsta X
19.  One Shot – B.A.P.
20.  BTD (Before the Dawn) – Infinite

Rise Into Twilight
1.     Blue Flame – Astro
2.     DamDaDi – Golden Child
3.     Growl – EXO
4.     Bounce – Boyfriend
5.     Love – Taemin
6.     Cherry – Nu’est
7.     Crush My Mind – VIXX
8.     Badman – B.A.P.
9.     Black Pearl – EXO
10.  Dangerous – X-5
11.  Like Rain Like Music – Baekhyun
12.  Lost – History
13.  Alligator – Monsta X
14.  Bomb – Ravi
15.  Let Out the Beast – EXO
16.  Rainfall – Chen
17.  Twilight – Oneus
18.  Wolf – EXO
19.  Tick Tack – U-Kiss
20.  Dracula – f(x)

Battle Against Night
1.     Last Romeo – Infinite
2.     Ghost – History
3.     Rise – Taemin
4.     N.O – BTS
5.     Under Cover – A.C.E.
6.     Lonely – Spica
7.     Mirotic – TVXQ!
8.     Winter Butterfly – Hyuk
9.     Valkyrie – Oneus
10.  Obsession – EXO
11.  Lost in the Dream – Monsta X
12.  Dun Dun – Everglow
13.  Good Luck -- Beast
14.  Hide & Seek – TVXQ!
15.  Answer – Ateez
16.  Stuck – Monsta X
17.  Maze of Memories – Stray Kids
18.  Shine – J-Min
19.  Memory – VIXX
20.  Fate – Paradise

Triumph Over Fate
1.     Depend On Me – VIXX
2.     Level Up – Oneus
3.     Jealous – TVXQ!
4.     Double Knot – Stray Kids
5.     가장자리 (Edge/ The Family Head) – N
6.     Girl Problems – EXO CBX
7.     Treasure – Ateez
8.     Cactus – A.C.E.
9.     On – BTS
10.  Secret Night – VIXX
11.  Exodus – EXO
12.  Baby Don’t Stop – NCT
13.  Trespass – Monsta X
14.  Manipulate – TVXQ!
15.  사랑했지만 (Thought I Loved You) – Chen
16.  Illusion – Ateez
17.  Bonamana – Super Junior
18.  Na Hago Nolja – Cross Gene
19.  Experience – Taemin
20.  Love Shot – EXO

Friday, March 13, 2020

Land of the Purple Ring Illustrations!

The Land of the Purple Ring (forthcoming May 5th) has illustrations drawn by the talented Katie Futterwacken!

The beetle that rolls the sun



Friday, March 6, 2020

Cover Announcement: The Land of the Purple Ring

I'm happy to announce that The Land of the Purple Ring has a cover!  The design is by the fabulous Nada Orlic, Thinklings Books's cover designer.  The book will also have interior art by Katie Futterwacken.  More on that soon. :)

Forthcoming May, 2020

Immeasurable imagination. Unmitigated magic. Spectacular style.

The clockwork man is crafted, to begin with—commissioned by that terrible tyrant Time to serve as her slave for all eternity. His brain boasts balance wheels and torsion springs; he can wind himself up with a key in his side; and, most importantly, his gyroscopic tourbillon heart glimmers with pure diamond.

He is a living being and he is art, and he refuses to remain a slave forever. He therefore slips through Time’s fingers as the Sands of Time slip through the cracks of reality (at least, when the time cats aren’t using them as a litter box).

Among astounding adventures, despite harrowing hardships, and in between escaping interfering enchanters, the clockwork man seeks his imagination, his purpose, and his name.


You can read the first chapter here.

Monday, March 2, 2020

Things Change and Things Stay the Same


Winter just can’t decide what’s up.

Usually, the seasons in Montana are quite simple: you have a chilly wet spring, a hot dry smoky summer, a hot dry mosquito-filled autumn, and a cold snowy winter.  It shouldn’t be like Colorado, which is as neurotic as the brain of a bloodsucker.

(Someone other than me will find that funny.  I guarantee it.)

And yet here we are, in winter-spring and spring-winter, with snow and sun and plants that want to bloom just to die in the next freeze.  It’s a strange, transitional period.

I empathize with it.

Part of it is the forthcoming publication of The Land of the Purple Ring, of course.  I’ve just seen the first of the illustrations and the first draft of the cover, and the book is in the very last stages of editing.

Part of it is all the changes with Thinklings Books.  The Writers’ Collective, launched only a few weeks ago, is taking off, and it’s a joy to witness writers connecting and learning.  Thinklings is also acquiring new fabulous authors, extraordinarily talented writers previously unfairly neglected by publishing companies because they lacked marketing backgrounds.

Part of it is my living situation.  I may or may not be moving.  I may or may not be buying my own place.  Regardless, I will certainly need to find new roommates, as their lease ends.  (Yes, roommates; I’m not married, and I don’t like to live alone.)

This is the nature of life: undulating.  Cycling.  Some things changing in patterns or stages; some changing entirely; some staying the same.

I like the predictable and the safe, because these things don’t interrupt my writing.  And yet if my whole life were that way, my brain would dry out, and my writing gasp for water.

I want stability to return, but I do not curse instability.  It brings good things as well as bad . . . and it, too, will pass.  In the meantime, I always know my dog loves me. :)

Saturday, February 1, 2020

Should Your Sequel Include Fanservice?

I believe that the greatest service you can render your fans is to write the best story possible.  That means not including any excess and purposeless material that bloats and stagnates your story for no good reason and to no benefit.

There is, of course, a place for such self-indulgence.  It's called fanfiction.  And you should definitely not be writing fanfiction of your own book in your book.  Leave that for the fans.  Please.

Wednesday, January 22, 2020

The Land of the Purple Ring - Chapter 1

This is the first chapter of my new book, The Land of the Purple Ring.  It will be published May 5, 2020.



The Land of the Purple Ring
by Deborah J. Natelson

Chapter 1: Perpetua

Imagine a land steeped in time.

Not time as we know it, with the swing of pendulums, the ring of alarms, the tick of clocks, the passage of then to now and back to then again and again and again and again. Nor time as a relative factor to be stretched and masticated, organized and sculpted, for time is not chewing gum and ought not be treated as such. Or so the inhabitants of Perpetua would tell you.

Time! You lose time, gain time, look for time, make time, kill time (a violent and wasteful act punishable by up to 10 years of clock tower maintenance work), save time, measure time, and otherwise treat time as your most precious commodity. Citizens of Perpetua know this, and they hoard time. They don’t have time to be generous or attentive or gracious, but nor do they have time for greed or selfishness or lazi­ness. They don’t even have time for time, most of the time.

The Clockmaker, as not only a citizen of Perpetua but a distant relative of Time herself (being the only child of Where Has the Time Gone?) naturally bought into this mentality at quite a reasonable monthly rate. He invested his time into the molding of cogs, the carving of hands and face and fob, the movement and dial. His shop smelled of bronze and oil and glass, and he never had a thought out­side of clocks until the Idea came.

IDEA: A member of the family Imagination (genus Inspira­tion), the Idea is a small but niggling notion that worms its way unnoticed into a brain. Once there, it hooks itself in and sends out tendrils for nourishment.

An Idea settled is nearly impossible to treat with­out professional help. In extreme cases, it may resist even the ministrations of Oblivitors, Bleachers, System Restorers, and Brainwashers.

Having no access to professional help, the Clockmaker immedi­ately succumbed to the Idea and got to work. Utilizing his decades of skill, he built a gyroscopic tourbillon of pure diamond. Inside a watch, it would have kept balance no matter which way the watch was turned and maintained a true tick for hundreds of years, but the Clockmaker did not put it inside a watch; he put it on display and called it a heart of crystal: beautiful in the glimmering, glinting, glis­tening way it inhaled and exhaled light as it spun.

Perpetuans caught the heart’s shimmer out of the corners of their eyes and in the warmth of their ticking hearts. Tears gathered and trickled down their cheeks. From the thirteen corners they came—in hordes!—to ooh and ah and admire and offer hours and years of time in exchange for it.

When word of the wondrous heart whispered in Time’s ear, she gathered her troops and marched out to see the source of the fuss.

The people of Perpetua felt the wear and tear of Time’s approach and fled from it. They crossed to neighboring cities and hid in cellars full of honey and amaranth and immortelle. They covered their faces and plugged their ears and tried not to breathe, lest she hear them. Time knew they hid and where, and amusement flickered across her bone-white eyes and hard mouth, for none can really hide from the effects of time.

On she marched, the breeze from her passing wearing down the features of stone façades and carving grooves into the abused earth. Stone cracked as she neared, and water evaporated. Flowers sprang up, withered, and died. Every sixty seconds, one of the moles clinging to her jowls sloughed off and fell to the ground. As it landed, it grew—an inch a second until a full-grown minuteman joined the retinue, marching behind his leader in perfect time.

Each minuteman carried a bayonet and wore boots and a blood-red suit, but Time herself wore only the gray of ash on her General’s uniform. Even her great leather belt had long faded to gray; and her feet were bare.

So Time crossed Perpetua, her tremendous pace devouring dis­tance until she stood in the threshold of the Clockmaker’s humble shop. Day and night, youth and age flashed across her fleshy face, and the wood of the shop rotted, and the clocks within rusted.

The Clockmaker exclaimed as his life’s work crumbled before his eyes. “Oh, great Time!” he cried, throwing himself at her flat, bare feet. “I cry you mercy!”

Minutemen stomped their boots and raised their bayonets, but Time only smiled, her face folding in deep, unpleasant creases. She leaned her hand on the doorframe, and it crumbled away. “I have no mercy,” she said. “Show me the diamond heart.”

The Clockmaker shriveled before her. He was not aging prema­turely despite Time’s proximity—which itself could bode nothing good. “The heart of crystal is my magnum opus,” he said. “It is dearer to me than anything else in the shop, anything else I’ve ever made. What a waste it would be to destroy it! And yet,” he added to himself, “it is so phenomenal that surely even Time could not bear to destroy it. Maybe if I show it to her, it will melt her ruthless heart, and she will leave me alive.”

Clutching this hope to his chest, the Clockmaker extracted the heart of crystal from its display cabinet and brought it before Time. Its glimmer and shimmer and shine captivated him, as they always did. “Is it not beautiful?” he breathed.

“It’s grotesque,” Time said. “A heart paraded about without a body? For shame!” She spoke harshly, but the glint of the heart reflected in her milky eyes and sparked desire within her. “Your life is forfeit, Clockmaker, for you have laid eyes upon Time. Yet I can be generous. Build me a mechanical man with this heart of crystal, and I will extend your life a year and a day to complete it.”

“A year and a day!” exclaimed the Clockmaker. “But that is not nearly enough time! Even polishing a watch can take me two weeks. Why, a mechanical man would take a lifetime!”

A smirk twisted Time’s wide lips. “Then a lifetime you shall have,” she said. “You shall live long enough to build me my slave, and not a moment longer. And don’t think I won’t know if you dither and dally and waste precious seconds!”

This last threat fell upon uncaring ears. The Clockmaker had not before considered making a body for the heart, but Time’s words had hooked a new Idea into his brain, and he fell before it.

-

The Clockmaker’s boy came to life at a very young age. Thousands of minuscule cogs whirred and wheeled and ticked away in his clock­work brain. The two independent balance wheels—which had bridges across the hemispheres of his brain and synchronized themselves automatically—were as long as the Clockmaker’s thumb; the smallest cogs were so petite that he could see their teeth only under a micro­scope. Each and every part shone, flawless, under the shop lights.

In those days, the boy had only a heart, a brain, and one ear, so he spent his time feeling and thinking and listening. The Clockmaker spoke to him continually, and so the boy learned what words meant.

“Time may have commissioned you,” the Clockmaker told him one day as he labored over a pair of eyes, “and I may build you, but you’ll need to be able to repair yourself. I wouldn’t trust another clockmaker, if you can avoid it. You never know for whom they might ultimately be working.”

-

“Why don’t you trust Time?” asked the boy, much later. His teeth were visible only on the left-hand side, where his jaw had been skele­tonized, and he was still getting used to having a tongue. “I wouldn’t exist without her commission—and you would be dead.”

“Yes, but neither is any credit to her; she merely wants a slave—one who can withstand her presence. Time has no real appreciation for living beings or art, and you are both.”

“But if I am to be a slave,” the boy pointed out, “wouldn’t it be better if I had neither life nor art? That way, I couldn’t be wasted.”

The Clockmaker did not answer immediately. Something by way of revelation was exploding in his brain, and he didn’t know what to do about it. He had never had time for family or personal attach­ments or anything aside from his work.

Only months later, when he had completed four fingers and a thumb and attached digits to hand and hand to arm and arm to torso frame, did he touch upon the topic again.

“It’s time for you to learn the craft, my boy,” he said. “I’ve been telling you about it these past three years. How much have you retained?”

“Everything,” said the boy.

“Good,” said the Clockmaker, and brought over a palm-sized alarm clock. “What would you do with this?”

The boy turned it over in his new hand and examined it with his rather near-sighted eyes. “It looks old,” he said. “A family heirloom, maybe. I would remove the rust and polish it up like you polish me.”

“That would be beautiful,” said the Clockmaker, “but this is where art comes in. The clock is old, and people like old things. We ought to honor its age. So by all means clean up the rust inside and replace any broken teeth, but treat the exterior with respect. Clean it, but do not make it look new.”

The boy tilted his head. “But it is tarnished.”

“Yes.”

“I do not understand,” said the boy, “but it does not matter. I do not need to be able to repair clocks, only myself. I am to be a slave, not a clockmaker.”

“You are my son,” the Clockmaker said firmly, “and I will teach you my profession.”

The boy paused, his clockwork brain grappling with this. “I did not know you considered me your son,” he said. “I have always con­sidered you my father, of course. Stop! Why are you crying? You will rust.”

From that day forth, the Clockmaker taught the boy everything he knew, which was mostly about clocks. In the mornings and after­noons, they worked together on the boy’s body, or the Clockmaker worked on the boy while the boy repaired clocks that had been wait­ing their turn patiently for years. In the evenings, the Clockmaker told the boy stories from his childhood and sang to him in a scratchy voice as they scrubbed the shop free of dust.

The boy’s clockwork brain remembered everything it was told, but this knowledge did not automatically transform into practical skill. The Clockmaker had to train him how to hold a broom, scrub brush, and sponge. At first, the boy’s fingers were thick and clumsy, but together, he and his father redesigned them until they could eradi­cate every grain of dirt from the deep corners of the workshop.

Clockmaking required four more revisions of the boy’s fingers, considerable brain extensions and fine tuning, and built-in magnify­ing glasses he could snap over his eyes. His brain itself had to be completely disassembled, cleaned, polished, oiled, and reassembled multiple times during this process, which the boy found vastly dis­concerting and which his father found even worse.

The most complicated watches contain over a thousand compo­nents, most of them tiny; the boy contained millions, and he learned how to make, assemble, and repair all of them. He could mount anchor crutches between scotch pins, twist springs (whether main­spring, fine-tuning, or spiral torsion), file screw heads, and carve screw threads. Escape wheels did not escape his attention, and his balance wheels spun with the precision of tightrope walkers. He adjusted adjusting pins, slipped tiny weight discs on balance pins to slow fast watches, and shaved weight from balance wheels to quicken slow watches. He mounted, polished, and oiled chatons, and knew the uses and misuses of twelve types of oil. Given a pattern, he could engrave any design.

Yet the Clockmaker remained unsatisfied. “It is not enough that you can follow instructions,” he said. “You must be able to give your­self instructions, invent new designs, and think independently. I will make you a box, but you will have to travel to Imaginarium to fill it.”

So the Clockmaker designed a case of pure iron and stored it in the boy’s gut. “Inspirations navigate by magnetic fields,” he explained, “and are confused by iron. When you escape Time’s pal­ace and get to Imaginarium, you’ll see for yourself.”

In those latter days, the Clockmaker was constantly plotting the boy’s escape from Time’s palace. He talked about freedom and slav­ery as he encased visible cogs in metal or glass; he explained about locks and keys as he inscribed his maker’s symbol on the boy’s collar­bone and checked that no screw was too loose or too tight; he empha­sized the importance of escaping before Time’s presence wore down cogs as he smoothed the boy’s kneecaps. “Time,” he said, “is of the essence.”

-

After nearly thirteen years of work, the Clockmaker knew he was finally coming to the end. He’d left engraving the boy’s nose until last, for this was the one feature he had modeled after his own face. The nose protruded sharply downward and ended in a razor point. The boy could neither smell nor taste, for these things are beyond clock­work, but he would have the most elegantly scroll-engraved nose and tongue imaginable.

“When I finish your left nostril,” the Clockmaker said, “you will be complete, my son—and then Time will come for you.”

“No, no!” cried the boy. “You cannot be done. I still need—you could polish—” But he was honest, and could think of nothing remaining. “But I do not want to leave you, Father!”

“I have had a good life,” said the Clockmaker; “I have gotten to build you. Remember how proud I am of you and all I have told you. And never forget to wind yourself up when you’re feeling languid.”

“But Father—please!”

“There, there,” said the Clockmaker, and three things happened at once: he smoothed the last stroke; he crumpled, dead, to the floor; and Time arrived to collect her property.

-

The boy had never before traveled past his own front door, and every new sight heralded a new miracle. From his window, he had been able to see the clock tower with its smiling triangle face, and he had supposed that every clock tower had a similar face. Not so. He saw oval faces and round, square and rectangular, heart-shaped and liver-shaped. The clock towers, like every clock they passed, heralded Time’s presence by chiming, tolling, booming, singing, or screeching every hour at once.

The boy saw neither people nor animals as they marched , but he saw evidence of far more human creativity than he could have guessed: sundials, vine-and-ivy clocks, lamp post clocks, hedge clocks, and a great many other things that were not clocks and that, therefore, the boy had not yet learned were to be appreciated.

Not that the boy was in any position to appreciate anything. Quite apart from being surrounded by minutemen, whose stylish caps blocked his view of everything below chin level, he was in a great deal of pain. He thought Time might have damaged something when she’d wrapped her massive mitts around his middle and carried him out of the disintegrating shop, away from the corrugated clocks, crumbling countertops, and most especially away from the figure on the floor sighing into dust. Something certainly felt broken. Perhaps she’d cracked the casing of his gyrotourbillon—his diamond heart that kept him ticking away in good balance whether he stood on his hands or on his head or spun at crazy angles.

The boy had never felt anything like this before, and wasn’t sure he could diagnose it himself. But he could not ask his father, and who else was there? The minutemen’s hands were so thick and clumsy inside their starched white gloves, and Time—

Time had commissioned his existence. It was by her will as it was by the Clockmaker’s craft that he had been born, and she should therefore be his mother, as the Clockmaker was his father. And surely she would be able to fix him. But when he looked at her marching on, uncaring, he learned what it was to be intimidated, and he stayed silent.

The boy made no attempt to escape. It never occurred to him to try: the Clockmaker had spoken only of escaping Time’s palace, not of escaping on the trip there. In any case, such utter wretchedness overwhelmed the boy that he could not have done anything if it had occurred to him.

As he sank into this morass of misery, the landscape changed. Gone were the dusty towns, the musty clock towers, and the trusty roads. Present were twenty-six gardens in a great loop, one garden for each hour of the day. They were sunlit or dark, netted with blooms or blooming with nettles, filled with fluttering butterflies or bumping with bats, seasoned with mist or snow or blazing heat.

If the boy had had a sense of smell, he would have swooned; if he had had allergies, he would have sneezed. As it was, his head cleared, and he looked with calm resignation over the coruscating scarlet morning flowers, the toxic midnight toadstools, and the mildly incon­veniencing nightshade—to Time’s palace.